Christmas Eve (with a few minutes to Christmas Day)

Christmas day with half a heart
Christmas day spent torn apart
Christmas day all on my own
Not with you, not at home.

Tis the season to be jolly,
wreath my heart with boughs of holly.
Sharp edged leaves cause me to bleed,
far away, you're what I need.

Christmas-tide means family
so it can't come here without thee.
The only thing that stills my tears
is hoping you'll be here next year.

Christmas time and I'm pretending.
I don't fit, I'm just not blending.
Christmas day, too crowded here.
I wish my clouded mind would clear.

I know for them I'm meant to care
but I don't want them to be there.
I just want to lift my head
and see you standing there instead.

I know you can't be here,
I know the reasons that you had to go,
but the only thing that stills my tears
is hoping you'll be here next year,
hoping next Christmas you'll be with me.